I’m so tired. I’m genuinely exhausted from working in the hospital. Working in a hospital has always been my dream. I’m currently in my fourth month as a nurse, and I have a 12-month contract. I thought I would be happy finally achieving my dream, but honestly, this job is slowly draining me. What makes it so difficult isn’t necessarily the nursing itself. It’s the working environment. First, the endless mandatory overtime. It feels like there’s always an expectation that you should stay longer, even when you’re already exhausted. Sometimes, even when you’re sick, you feel pressured to come to work because your colleagues don’t want to cover extra hours or do overtime. Then there’s the workplace environment. Some colleagues are genuinely cruel. They gossip about you, talk behind your back, and seem to dislike you simply because you’re new. Even when I keep to myself and don’t bother anyone, I still somehow become a topic of conversation. I’m not saying I’m a perfect nurse. I’m still learning, and of course, I make mistakes. But I always try my best to improve. Most of my mistakes are minor things that can be corrected and learned from. For example, I once had difficulty communicating with a patient’s relative. I explained everything as clearly as I could because I also wanted to respect visiting hours and avoid keeping the ward occupied longer than necessary. But somehow, that one small incident became a huge topic of gossip among my colleagues for DAYS. It makes you feel like you can’t do anything right. Another thing that frustrates me is the workload. Sometimes I’m responsible for patients who aren’t even assigned to me, on top of the 13 patients I’m already caring for. I end up helping with everyone else’s patients, but when it comes to my own patients, I don’t always receive the same support in return. Being one nurse responsible for that many patients is already overwhelming. I’m trying so hard to become a good nurse, but how am I supposed to learn and improve in an environment where you constantly feel judged, unsupported, and afraid of making even the smallest mistake? Guys, I’m genuinely drained. I know I’m still a new nurse, and I don’t even have a full year of experience yet. I also know that nursing is a demanding profession, and I’m not expecting everything to be easy. But is this what nursing is supposed to feel like? I worked so hard to achieve this dream, and now I’m starting to feel like I’m losing the passion I once had for it. I don’t want to give up on nursing. I just don’t know how much longer I can tolerate this particular working environment. For those of you who have been nurses for years: Would you stay and complete the 12-month contract, or would you start looking for another hospital?   submitted by   /u/ExtraIndividual6244 [link]   [comments]